1. |
Palliative
04:35
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Refuge of the mind
Between the spit and shout
The growing pains in every bone
Bent over and scrambling
Retching dry cough for months now,
For months now inflamed and getting hotter still
Far gone far flung right over the lip
Drinking in the sap as the tensions rise
No steady drip
Cut the whole damn tree down for the sweet inside
Trophy life blood, trophy life blood
Its getting hotter still
And the rate of change is changing fast
We bear witness, we cannot go back
The rate of change is changing fast
We must be witness, we cannot go back
Stretching arthritic limbs
Load bearing walls reveal they were nothing more than wings
And the police car on fire
Is a mother's grief and rage
Just another devil to be sworn in
A midwife is a person who
Sees to it that birthing and dying is followed through
With attention to the detail
With a steady hand
We must be midwives to the time we're in
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2. |
Stolen Lands
05:51
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We are the words that our ancestors give us
The breath that they breathe into life into us
The dreams that they dream in the days and the nights of us
And if those ancestors speak in a tongue of drought
A breath charred by the desert sun too long left out
A dream splintered by what they've gone so long without
I go through my days clasping spectres of what came before
A riverbed deep and flooded with the law, lore
Of the healers and witches
When knowledge was the barter for bread
And people knew something of what they live for
There's a rope twisted salty and I burn my hands
Defiantly wrapped by the herbs by the strands of the moon
That float from the loom of the dark night calling me
To take up corners and land
Land
But in the feel of it all I know something else
Something bitter and acrid and pungent in the shadow self
I may be born of the earth but the trees they were felled in my name
My mother's name
Grandmother's name
We come from a rising and falling of swords
Of blood smeared across chests and arrows in the horse
Of states and their curse and their worth in the order
Self willed no more
My tongue comes from a civilisation that worships
The pen and the fence and the men and the men
It's all men and their minds
What to ken from it all when the others were burned with their words
I could be from people who saw a disorder in poor
And strapped burden and death to their backs
While they hoarded the grain
Defiled the soul left it lame from the rain and the work
And the begging for more
But it might be that the people that fought in the fields and forests
The line of their young led to me
And the torrents that rage from mouth onto mouth
Through song incantation it's what i breathe
But i breathe in the air that was stolen from others
From black and brown bodies children wrenched from mothers
The ships, the trade and the cane and the fight to the death
Smothered people felled in the name of a name
And i see pillars of bone and blood for our foundations
All these nations the state reactive independence
But independence is frought with the gaping wound
Left from the soul trading the empty womb
What's left I turn to my cunt to my womb
To the blood that flows tides into tides
To the roar and the swell
Capsizing the ships that sought dominance
It trues and it weilds what we mean by common sense
And what is trued if not sense
Of our fingers our tongues and our ears
Fumbling round for roots to follow, linger
We cannot lie to our bodies they know
Little shells of our wild selves
So we live and we live and we dig and we pick
At a scab of a guilt that just needs time to heal
How to be real to another when the things that have built us
Are the thefts and the kills and the wills of a wasteland
We come from sickness in soil
The rich and their spoils
We are children of luddites and pagans and diggers
Or we are children of war of gentry of piety
However we came here
Burnt by the same flame that splits veins casts chains
Rearranges our minds into confessions and naming names
Kill the cop in your head but what if the cop that is there
Is a thousand year old figurehead
The pain we inflict is a sign of the pain
That bore blood and burnt crops in the homestead
It is there that we come home to ourselves
Come home to the things that were stolen from us long ago
We need to come home to the things that were stolen from us long ago
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3. |
Come Of Age
03:39
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The kids in this city they grow just like the trees
Nothing sheltering and nourishing in the deeper ways they need
Bolting upwards to the sun
Fully grown but yet so young
Fledglings in a world of nests
Scattered by such bitter winds
And the distance that grows between
My hands and those born unto these days
It's striking me how generations past
Might have felt similar ways
And the disconnect and the changes that are coming
Some haven't happened yet
Some are so deeply running
What kind of person can I be to those
Who live around my knees
Being handed down the dregs
Of what was handed down to me
Maybe it's not a question of what we want to do or say
But an urging for a blessing
As we carve out these dark and troubled days
There's a letter in the mail from my little cousins who
Despite the crushing weight of it all on their shoulders
See creativity bloom
And I'm captured by the moment
And I imagine bringing them here
To share something of my world with them
They can carry through their years
But then the moments gone
And I wonder what do I have to give
When I'm a relic from a time
But it wasn't always like this
Can I meet them where they are
What kind of person can I be to those
Who bear the markings of the great transition
Where live supposedly starts to set off
When they find out they've been had
In some grave and blinding telling
In their eyes we did the damage
It is us who did the felling
Those who came before me
They owe it to me
But so far I'm mostly empty handed
We're stacked and we're shipped
And we're sold as ill equipped
We're grieving and we're stranded
I thought I knew where I could find them
But it turns out I was wrong
I have to will them into being
I have to call that ancient song
And as an older one to little ones
Who might by chance sing it to
If I don't know how to sing it back to them
This is their bereavement too
Time simultaneously feels tight around my chest
While cutting loose it's fraying ties
What do we have left
When we're all as bereft as the next in the line
We're all as bereft
Maybe this is our time
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4. |
Burrowing Time
04:20
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Taking walks down the paths
Again and again
Revisitations reconsiderations of the learnt and the left
Spiders webbing and ebbing and tidal consuming
Losing my ankles to the peat-lands, the bog
In the midst of it all
I see spirals surround me
As if time caught my wrist and turned me back to face it all
I've been following time like the chase of a deer
I've been following time keeping me out of my sight
The energy of low sun reflects in my limbs
What to fight for is dulled by hibernation
The coldest moon for a long time
It's not over yet
Regathering after winter death
I have hands that can only do as much as I will them
But does something stronger and older will them too
To stand chilled or wrapped warm
In Burrowing time
It's from those who come next that we're borrowing time
Well i found so much to be true
Now it's faltering
Pining for shared stories
To wrestle with my ego in
The wisdom of those who took life from these deaths
Those who acknowledge the void
And go into the depths
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5. |
Remember
05:17
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Then the sky was pink
And the moon was still
And we listened for the sounds
On the top of the hill
Then our bodies were cold
But our ears were tuned
And our voices in their murmurs
Asked each other what they knew
And as it turned out some had a theory
And some, well they had observed
Strangers sharing hearts and tales
Curious and alert
Young ones in their coats and hats
The dog with so many to meet
Older folks who'd come to know
The ground below their feet
We cannot love what we don't know
We cannot fight for what we don't love
So much mystery above us
But to wonder is sometimes enough
Then the sky was blue
And the air was hot
And we exchanged our words of greeting
On the paths that so many had walked
Then the kids they ran
To the place that I crouched
And the three of us we wondered
What it was we had stumbled upon
Lichen in my pockets
Soil between my toes
Bird song in my memory
The smell of salt in my clothes
I take it all home and it makes its bed
So that I can always remember
Even when I seem to forget
When I feel the sea wrapped around my calves
Something unfolds in me
I'm sure is part of this past
And I want to hold the hands of everyone I love
And guide them into the darkness
Let the water tend to their cuts
When I feel the sea around my calves
Hold the hands of everyone I love
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6. |
Go Easy
05:23
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He put his hands on my body
And took something from me
It shook me to the core
And I still struggle to believe
The weight that is left there
I lost the ground below me
I haven't got it back
These days are long and difficult
I'm on the edge and full of cracks
But I have to go on
I said to the moon
I will heal despite this
And she said you know
You can always find home here
He was not welcome
And you are not to blame
Go easy on yourself child
Go easy on yourself
My beautiful lover was too close to this pain
And in the darkness of my mind
They are entangled
And in the firing range
But they didn't start the fire
The grief is in my boots
And I carry it around
While doing what I can to cope with change
To not look down
But it is heavy and I feel it
I cannot move on
I must go through it
The heart is so strong
But only takes so much before it can't
And I know I must go slowly
I am kin of the trees
Kin of the birds
Kin of the mushroom
Kin of the shoals and the herds
He cannot take that from me
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7. |
Shaky Foundations
05:59
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So I've been scared for a while
For a long time actually
It's like I built a foundation
That is practically in pieces
Just assembled for aesthetics
For the sake of prosthetics
Walls walls walls we all know the story
It's taken time to see that this is me too
Balanced on the edge of who I want to be
And terrified of who I think I am
And what is true
What is true when we get down to it
What is true when we cut right through the bullshit
What is true when we don't hide
From the depths of who we are
I have to let the weight of your words
Sit on my chest sit with it
Cause I know that you say them with love
Let the courage it takes
To be honest, be real
Be honoured
Cause I know you say them with trust
That I'll hear you
That I won't shut you down
Shut you out
Even if I don't want to hear it
Cause my shaky foundations
Are no excuse for not building back up
Learning as tiny little humans
All the ways that were passed down from our older ones
So much fear control and bitterness
To survive is to hold back emotion
But what comes from emotional repression
We all bear scars from such long and brutal lessons
We cannot look into ourselves
Whether for compassion
Or reflection
What's my defense when I get down to it
What's my defense when I cut right through the bullshit
What's my defense when I don't hide
From the depths of who I am
Coming to terms
With the totality of our minds
Harbouring such beauty and strength
But that light is never without its' shadow side
It's blinding full beam on a lonely night
Road draped in the bones of the bodies that you hit
All the times you hadn't learnt to drive
You can't change what you've done or who you've been
The many things you didn't know
As you clinged to the dregs in your cup
Instead of emptying
We're all sinking when we can't stop long enough to cry
Not just to acknowledge our pain
But to always ask why
Where did it come from
This free floating restless anxiety
Where did it come from
Our aggression our judgement our apathy
Where did it come from
This resistance to admitting we were wrong
That we didn't have the tools needed to make better decisions
You're not a monster for the wrath in your mind
But it's down to you to find a way
Climb down the rungs
And get inside
We're just layers and layers
Of repression domestication
The salt left after the heat of this
Endless war on our conscience
It's taken movement from our bodies
Fire from our minds
It's made us sick and contorted and many struggle to survive
Clogged up stagnant brimming with a need
Bigger than any one person
But we're dry heaving with the shame and defeat
Of loneliness
Gulping air into our lungs to breathe
Cause we believe we're all alone
We won't ever get any better
Always fucking up
Always pushing the ones we love away
Always afraid
So be ready to hear something hard
Be ready to claw at the earth
Searching for something buried and decomposing
You can't ever be ready really
But it's happening anyway
And I was raised in fear of the potency of my own being
And you were raised a man so I'm amazed
At all the things I hear you saying
All things considered
We're doing the best with what we've gota
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8. |
Tail Eater
04:18
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Tail eater
Dark as the womb
Bright as the womb
Climbing the spine
Squeezing light from the moon
The sea holds another soul
Breaking waves on another day
The sea holds another soul
Breaking waves on another day
It has gone on and continues to be
When we are gone always something will breathe
It is always changing it is never still
It never stops it never will
We burn the people on the stake in the square
We are burnt people on the funeral pyre
We dig the soil up over the heads
We are laid down in the dirt with the worms
On our soft earthen bed
Passed down from the fauna
The mushroom the cell
We know things we don't know that we know
In the primordial swell
Born out of chaos
Death as release
Return to the depths to be born again
As the wind in the trees
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9. |
The Way That It's Gone
05:01
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The heat descends upon the earth
The divine of life erupting into song
Sun highest in the sky until its next return
At the rate that these days pass it won't be too long
My skin it knows the feeling of fire
But my heart is still beating in the snow and the dark
We've travelled through this winter
Through spring and into summer
And we've reached understanding at last
And so it ends
And so it begins again
Our dance with the darkness and the light
And so we'll live our lives on the periphery of each other
Hearts tender and broken and loving despite
The way that it's gone
The way that I've hurt you
And the way that I've been hurt by other things too
The way that it's gone
The way that it'll be going
But what a gift to love and be loved by you
I was too scared to know myself too deeply
When broken by a violence I didn't expect
Closed to the heart where grief nested and made home of hearth
A pain that took away my breath
But this pain it barricaded myself from you
And like the frosty northern wind I cut you deep
All you tried to do was understand
As I thrashed in my imagined cage
What I do to you I also do to me
And so it ends
And so it begins again
Our dance with the darkness and the light
And so we'll live our lives on the periphery of each other
Hearts tender and broken and loving despite
The way that it's gone
The way that I've hurt you
And the way that I've been hurt by other things too
The way that it's gone
The way that it'll be going
But what a gift to love and be loved by you
May this ending bring us closer to ourselves
In ways we couldn't anticipate before
You found a voice under the layers
That said you deserved better
My voice was humbled and needing something more
Than scattered attachment
Or the illusion of freedom
What you offered was a love beyond those binds
Now I sit with the loss
And open up to yours
And hope our hearts can mend with patience and time
And so it ends
And so it begins again
Our dance with the darkness and the light
And so we'll live our lives on the periphery of each other
Hearts tender and broken and loving despite
The way that it's gone
The way that I've hurt you
And the way that I've been hurt by other things too
The way that it's gone
The way that it'll be going
But what a gift to love and be loved by you
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Earthen throne beneath me
Pulsing sky above
Lightning cracking throughout the fascia
As I birth myself again into the world
Dark red cave enclosing
Silver pool to soothe
Wrinkled hands inviting
As I birth myself again into the world
As I birth myself again into the world
Snake emerges from my eyes my mouth
Jaguar tracks the scent between my legs
Owl appears in the mother dark
As I birth myself again into the world
As I birth myself again into the world
Initiations
An invitation to descend
Shedding skins that mark the passage you take
Fumbling
Flesh bound coven of dark devout womb song
In bodies that map the cosmos
There is no binary to be found in this galacta nest
Lest they confine us to the biology of violence
That we have already had carved into our glistening
Ambiguous forms
Womb imagining defying the corporeal
Alchemilla cloaks herself around me
Rose entwines along my spine
Stellaria webs across the cosmic vastness
As I birth myself again into the world
As I birth myself again into the world
The cave
The river
The moon
The earth
The spiral
The threading
Birth myself again into the world
Birth myself again into the world
The markings
The passage
The symbols
The blood
The gathering
The elders
Birth myself again into the world
Birth myself again into the world
The screaming
The keening
The groaning
The well
The writhing
The crying
Birth myself again into the world
Birth myself again into the world
The hare came to me in the night
I followed her
She became the dog
Kinfolk dancing ribbons of knowing into my heart
The ground is moss and mud and grief and insight
Carried in the woven basket of my birth
Vastness of creation making
Raging waters in the small temple bowl
Drink it greedily and with no doubt
You know
Descent is the only way back up
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